I get beaten down so much. I get blamed for everything. I'm always doing wrong. Why do I let myself…

I get beaten down so much. I get blamed for everything. I'm always doing wrong. Why do I let myself get treated that way? I hit my breaking point I actually put my hands on him. I never did that EVER. I just couldn't take it anymore. So now I'm on the couch and really debating on just leaving in the middle of the night and going to be with my son at my moms.