I'm so STRESSED out right now! I think having a newborn and 2 other children and NO help from bd is starting to catch up…

I'm so STRESSED out right now! I think having a newborn and 2 other children and NO help from bd is starting to catch up to me! I had my first breakdown (crying) today. I've done so good at trying to keep it together and today it just hit me like a ton of bricks. I don't want to sound like I'm complaining because I knew what I was getting myself into when I found out I was pregnant. I knew things would be different and a little bit harder. But I also thought I would have a little bit more help for her dad. Every time I need him to hold her or watch her so I can shower or eat or use the bathroom the excuse I get is she don't like me she cries. like wtf man that's a cop out. yes she tends to favor me right now cause she knows I'm the one that feeds her (BF) , but she cries with my mom and she hasn't given up. I'm just so overwhelmed. and he thinks it's funny to come in and jump on the bed wake her up and them leave like really!!! it took me 4 hours to get her back to sleep. I'm tired because I really can't sleep when she does because of my other 2 I'm hungry cause I haven't been eating cause he can't hold her. I'm mastering the one handed eating again lol. I thought this go round would be different cause we're older, but nope it's still the same. He left me with our son and now it's the same with our daughter. I should've known better shame on me. Sorry I know this was long but I'm just tired more emotionally the physically.