God gives us only what we can handle. I trust in Him. Right now I pray for strength. Last night I…

God gives us only what we can handle. I trust in Him. Right now I pray for strength. Last night I screamed "why" and "no" into my pillow countless times...I don't understand why he had to go so early. I don't understand why this had to happen. I do know God's will is nothing that can be explained. I just wish I had an ounce of comfort right now. my body feels numb...barely feeling the contractions that are bringing this baby closer to this world. My brothers and I have always had each other. no matter what was going on...we had one another. now one of us is gone...