okay so my hormones are going crazy today and i need to vent.... my dummy of a bf lost his job because he kept calling off (meanwhile im 39 weeks pregnant) and he wants to stay at home with her and not go back to work. okay fine thats cool with me. but that means 1 week after i deliver i have to go back immediately, because i have to pay 700 worth of bills this month with no help. meanwhile im freaking out cause my baby stopped growing and they might have to do a c-section (which i wanted to avoid at all costs) and today is the day i find out which way ill be able to deliver. and he knows my appt is at 2 and he invites his friend over to hang out so he "cant" go. Okay whatever ill take his mom with me instead and we'll have a good day. Ugh! I swear once this dude leaves im gunna blow up!

On a completely different note i really hope my baby girl grew to at least 38 weeks cause i want her to be a healthy baby and not have to stay in the hospital, because ill feel like i failed already at being her super hero mom who protects her...... Grow sweetheart grow!!!!!

Post over..... 😭😭😭