For the last few weeks, my daughter wouldn't look at me. She would look at me for a second or two…

For the last few weeks, my daughter wouldn't look at me. She would look at me for a second or two but that was it. I felt awful. I felt like she didn't like me lol. But tonight we made eye contact and she just wouldn't stop looking at me. And she smiled. And I know they say at this point smiling is just reflexive, but it felt like it was an actual smile. Either way, I was the happiest I've been since giving birth to her. I feel like we're finally starting to bond. Depression is awful. It makes me think awful thoughts and sometimes I feel like she just hates me, and I want to give up. I haven't been able to enjoy her like I want to. But tonight, was the best night I've had in a long time. I actually wanted to cry out of joy. That's my little girl. I made that. I'm her mommy, and I think she knows that.