I can wait to hold my son in my arms. I am scared about giving birth. And even more freaked out…

I can wait to hold my son in my arms. I am scared about giving birth. And even more freaked out about the epidural. I had a spinal tap before and that's all I can think of. Needles in my back just make me want to cry. and I hope my son can breathe oxygen on his own. And I hope he doesn't need his open heart surgery as soon as he is born and we can at least wait until he is a few months old.