I should be in bed sound asleep but instead I am sitting here in my chair with the glare of the tv…

I should be in bed sound asleep but instead I am sitting here in my chair with the glare of the tv on... I'm not sure what the outcome of tomorrow will be. I'm actually really terrified to find out... I'm praying for the best and preparing for the worst... And the one person who's supposed to be standing by my side is the one who's causing all of this...