I want to make a scrap book for my son about all the things I done and accomplished before he got…

I want to make a scrap book for my son about all the things I done and accomplished before he got here. I'm due in November and I'm just excited to be having a boy. God does answer prayers. I never told anyone this but I have a son already but I gave him up for adoption to a family member to hide the fact I was pregnant at 10. I just hope that my son doesn't hate me for my decision. I do still think about him and love him soo much it's just something I had to do I was raped by his father (my uncle) and I regret giving him away. I just want to do right for this one.