God, I really need to see someone because my anxiety is just at such an all time high. I have meds…

God, I really need to see someone because my anxiety is just at such an all time high. I have meds but won't take them because I am breastfeeding and NOTHING is worth the risk to me of transmitting any medicine through the milk to my baby. I don't really know how to handle all life is throwing at me anymore, that much I do know.