I need some encouraging words right now . I feel like everytime i try to do something positive…

I need some encouraging words right now . I feel like everytime i try to do something positive something knocks me down . i love my job by i feel as though i should just quit until i get myself together . I spent all night arguing with my mom so i overslept , she was suppose to watch my son this morning but when i told her i was going to bring him to her she told me no . And then i have been calling his father but he is not answering . Like i swear i love my son to the moon and back but when i first got pregnant i wanted to get an abortion and they both convinced me to keep him and now that my back is against the wall and need help with no nobody wants to be bothered . I cant wait until I can stack a few dollars and up and move away from them