I have a really bad history with men, so they make me really nervous. So when my father in law yelled at me the first…

I have a really bad history with men, so they make me really nervous. So when my father in law yelled at me the first time we met, lectures me every time I'm at the dinner table, and talked crap about me in Spanish he kind of ruined any chances of me not feeling super uncomfortable around him. He acts all guilty and sad sometimes cause he knows I'm uncomfortable but I can't hide it I must turn pale when he talks to me. 😞 I don't know how to act normal around him