I feel depressed everyday living at my dad's house. His wife makes sure she makes me feel unwanted. I left my own apartment because I didn't get paid for maternity leave. Now me and my two kids share a room. I couldn't find a store to transfer to here in California. Now I barely have any money. I sit all day sad every about the decisions I have made. I try to pretend like I am happy but I really am not. I have a test to take for a job but I don't have a sitter for my baby. I love my baby but I was not expecting to start over after 8 years. I know I made the right decision to to keep her. I just wish I had help with kids and a job with my own place to live and car that is not going to break down every other month. I keep telling people I depressed they just keep telling not to let my dad's wife affect me. It is easier said than done. I wanted to go to school for RN since I was staying here but that is not even an option now. I have to just find a job so I can move out even if it is a one bedroom.

I was just talking to my cousin about this. I had severe depression and having thoughts that scared even me. I regret not talking to my doctor about it. I just went on day by day until I felt better thanks to my husband and mom. I'm pregnant again and terrified I will feel the same but I promised myself and family that I will tell my doctor if I feel the that way. It's important to talk to your doctor. I feel if I didn't have my family there I don't know what I would have done.