I'm starting to beat on my self I keep seeing woman with huge families they created or pregnant women or people talking about kids and their pregnancy stories and it's starting to break me ... I'm starting to think I'm infertile .. Why can't I get pregnant .. Why isn't my body doing what it needs to do .... I want to feel the joy of carrying a baby in my body ..feeling the movements .... I even want the pain of pushing with no meds ... But at this point I think it won't happen ... It's not a thing in this world I want more than a positive pregnancy