Sorry for the long post..

I need some serious up lifting.. about two weeks ago my SO and I split up. We have been together for 3 and a half years and have the most adorable son that is 9mnths old. Since becoming pregnant and giving birth, I leaned on my SO for alot of things bc I literally went through what every other FTP goes through and lots my network of friends. I noticed that my SO played ALOT of video and computer games and I wanted him to at least compromise a little of his time to "us". I would get depressed bc I would have no one to talk to or go do things with like I used too and he would go do things accasionally and I guess I would get jealous and upset. So we fought alot and not like screaming fights but just enough to upset each other. We have always had a problem with money and I am not the best person at dealing with being BROKE so I took alot of stress out on him.. But anyways at first he said he was done with no light at the end of the tunnel for us untill about last week when he said he missed me and we needed to work on things but still be separated for a while longer until we work out our kinks. Which I am okay with if it means having our family back together, Id do anything. I just have a hard time dealing it everything bc I went from my HOME to staying in a little bedroom at my dads and he has our huge house that now his brother and two daughters that he has part time staying with him to help his brother out for a month or two. I walked in the other day and my son's room is not my son's room anymore bc his brother in there and our office is now the girls room. Like how am I supposed to deal with that?! What if I wanted to just lay on the couch with my SO with nothing more than a t-shirt and watch TV? How can I deal with my son's room is now in different parts of the house? How do I deal with not being there every morning waking up next to my SO? How do I deal with not just walking in to my house anymore bc I have to knock and let them know I am coming over? I know that I am still gonna be at my dads for a while but still. All of these emotions are so hard and overwhelming.