I feel kindly depressed and that's all I can think about

I did for the first 2-3 weeks after having her just cause I was extremely stressed out. I've weaned myself back off, or well the where I only "need" to smoke if I'm about to loose my mind. I felt bad in the beginning, but it was either that or my loosing all my sanity.

as soon as i got out of the hospital i did with all the stress and pain i was in that is all i wanted