I need to vent. I haven't had a job since December and I really want to get one. My fiancé doesn't…

I need to vent. I haven't had a job since December and I really want to get one. My fiancé doesn't want me to get a job because he likes providing for me BUT I hate feeling like a damn bum. I like working! It's always such a big argument even if I talk about getting a freaking part time job at a gas station or something and I am so freaking sick of it. I know we're not going anywhere any time soon but if something were to happen I want to atleast have some money to buy my son diapers and wipes and anything else he needs/wants with MY OWN money! What is so bad about that?!