I finally braved looking down there at the war zone that I call my vagina after birth 😳😐😶 not as…

I finally braved looking down there at the war zone that I call my vagina after birth 😳😐😶 not as mangled and elephant man looking as I was expecting but it's still gross and defo does NOT look the same I also still have that bloody cyst which has tripled in size on my wee hole and the doctor said when she saw it if it doesn't burst In labour it will have to be operated or drained come my 6 week app and looking about it online I'll have to wear a catheter AGAIN for 4-6 weeks I bloody hated that thing and at least I had the epidural so I couldn't feel the pain of if 😭😩