Guess im just a big fat lard that nobody will ever truly love. Including myself . May as well off myself n leave the baby to the state. nobody gives a fuck about me anyways
Omg please don't think that way!! I have battled SEVERE depression since I was about 13, every single day, so I can understand where you're coming from. I had a father that would beat me until I was near death, tell me every day how ugly and fat I was, that I'd never be anything, that I'd never be pretty because I wasn't blonde/blue eyed, and that men would only want me for one thing....said no man would ever love me because I wasn't worth loving...I mean, the list goes ON. I know what it feels like to feel worthless. But let me just tell you something....to your baby, YOU are the world. To your baby, YOU are God because they know nothing else. Don't take yourself away from your baby for selfish reasons....that baby needs you. Make your child your reason for going on and living. You can and will find happiness in the baby - and when the time is right, when you least expect it - someone perfect will enter your life and sweep you off your feet. STAY STRONG. There is always morning after the dark of night....remember that. I will pray for you. Hugs
I don't know what your going through, but I'm here to talk to if you want. Plenty of times I thought the same but just think of that blessing your growing inside of you, and you're almost at the point you get to see your baby. I promise that will make everything worth it, even on your worst days. Keep your head up momma❤️