my daughter father doesn't understand why I want her first birthday to be special since two years…

my daughter father doesn't understand why I want her first birthday to be special since two years prior I lost my first baby at 3 months and never got to do a first birthday or anything so I'm making sure with Naomi everything special she my rainbow baby she saved me from myself when I completely lost myself after my miscarriage I told him this yet he still don't understand and it's making me sad and feel guilty for wanting her birthday to be extra special