Going back to work tomorrow affer 4 months of being off and I feel so anxious and nervous. 1 because I don't want my supply to go down, I'm only scheduled for 2 days this week so it's not so bad but any kind of not nursing or pumping for certain amount of hours can make your supply go down. I'm worried they won't let me pump when I need to go because I'm a server and they don't really give breaks. 2 because I'm going to miss my baby so much even though I feel guilty when I need a little time to myself and I have post partum depression so I feel like going back to work will help. 3 I fear that she will not be so attached to me anymore because I'm going back to work. Call me crazy for the last one.

Am I wrong to be upset? Last night I was running a fever, weak, tired, sore, my left boob feels like it got used as a punching bag. I asked my husband to call out of work today to help me with the kid so I could get some rest. He went to work. I texted him this morning. Part of me thinks I mean. The other part of me thinks I was fine for saying that because he should've stayed home with us.
Creeped out!
A new guy at work just tickled the back of my neck! I cringed and told him "Don't ever touch me, that weirds me out!" On Monday he pulled my braid as I was grabbing parts for him, I also told him don't ever do that. Ugh. I don't feel comfortable working with him EVER! A coworker told me that when she walked past he said "what's cooking good looking". I feel he doesn't deserve to work here. I can't feel like I'm going to be harassed at work. Like who does that?? I'm so creeped ou...
I feel like all you girls on here hate me 😔 so I'm gonna delete this app ✌️
Breastfeeding moms: so I am planning on going on a 3 day vacation with my hubby & a bunch of friends to Catalina in May, (my baby won't be going with us) and I do not wanna be pumping and dumping every 2 hours out there.. so if I don't pump or breastfeed for 3-4 days, will my milk supply drop significantly? 😩😩 & I don't know how I'm gonna deal with the engorgement pain if I can't find time to pump out there.