little rant: its like everything i didnt want to happen is happening to me, ice always been careful…

little rant: its like everything i didnt want to happen is happening to me, ice always been careful about getting pregnant because of things like this when your not fully established as in person. My pregnancy has not been the easiest feom morning sickness to hemroids to being in the Er for early sign of labor because of dehydration which i dont get because i drink plenty of water. Now my manager wants me to go on early disability beacuse im unreliable im like duhh im pregnant because i leave work if i get sick while there. I tried explaining to my manager that i rather come in then call out.. Right now is not a good time being that my bf is out of work for 2 weeks due to kidney stone surgery. On top of this had to cancel planning my babyshower because our health comes first.. At this point in my life ive never felt soo unstable and worth less ive always held job and been ohkay.. now its like i question did i make the right decision on keeping my baby?? Everything is just such bad timing i wanna break down and cry. Life is just reminding me as to why ive always protected myself against getting pregnant.