Nobody tells you how hard it is to be a military wife. I just dropped of my husband at the airport…

Nobody tells you how hard it is to be a military wife. I just dropped of my husband at the airport and won't see him till February and to top it off he won't be here for the birth of our first baby. It's a lot to take in right now I feel as if I want to curl in a ball and cry but I can't seem to because I feel if I do that then I can't be a strong mom and show that even thought dad has to work my son has a strong mom who can take care of him. It's hard right now I just don't know how to feel