So last night my boyfriend took me to dinner and it was really sweet but by the end of it he had…

So last night my boyfriend took me to dinner and it was really sweet but by the end of it he had little more to drink than I would have liked. We got home and he went out to talk on the phone and I went to the bathroom and noticed I was spotting . I had been really sick and cramping the day before and was still cramping when I discovered it. I called the after hours nurse and she said I should go in just in case. It could mean nothing or it could mean something and waiting wouldn't be wise. So I asked my boyfriend to go with me and he started getting all upset. I planned to drive myself and j was going whether he went or not, he put me in his truck and started driving like a maniac running red lights and speeding. I tried explaining the difference between it being an emergency and being something we go get checked out as soon as possible and started freaking out asking if I was blowing it out of proportion. Like I don't really need to go. I couldn't sit at home thinking something could be wrong with my baby. When we got there my blood pressure was like 160 . And then e started being nice again and it went down to 140. I have severe anxiety and guilt. I am still laying in bed because I feel like I ruin everything and I can't bring myself to get up. I haven't felt this worthless since I was in high school. I thought I was doing the right thing and now I feel like I just failed again.