My son is not a crier, he just fusses, and it's not a constant fuss; It's in spurts. I get told he's…

My son is not a crier, he just fusses, and it's not a constant fuss; It's in spurts. I get told he's disappointed in me because I rather sleep then get up and pump and feed our child. Excuse me? I set the alarm clock for every 2 hours to go off, but he starts fussing sooner. He use to get up every 3. I have to retrain my body to get up at every 2, and that is actually not as easy as it sounds. I get it, I'm not producing as much breastmilk as I needed, and yes I can sleep through his fussing. It is NOT intentional nor is it on purpose. So for you to tell me your disappointed in me, is not only uncalled for, it's frustrating. You only take care of him on weekends and at night, I have him Monday through Friday its is not as easy as it sounds especially since I've been sleep deprived since labor and I have no help during the week and I don't trust his grandmother anywhere near my son without me watching her the entire time so she is no help to me. And to top it all off, he either has colic or going through a growth spurt. So don't come to me on a high horse you piece of shit and try to insult me.