i need to vent. 29 weeks, ftm. up until 21 weeks everything was going smoothly with my pregnancy.…

i need to vent. 29 weeks, ftm. up until 21 weeks everything was going smoothly with my pregnancy. then over night i had horrible itching all over my body. i was diagnosed with gestational diabetes, an inflamed liver, gallstones and cholestasis. i am now miserable. i haven't been able to enjoy me pregnancy at all. i also have mild depression. i can't sleep at all at night, but take 2 hours naps during the day. I'm in pain everyday due to the gallstones. my hands swell up and itch horribly and when the swelling goes down my hands hurt so bad i can barely hold a pen. i am not coping well. i feel like i am slowly loosing a grip and i can't wait to give birth to feel a little normal again. i love my baby girl, and I'm happy that I'll be a mommy, but all of this... it's just hard to take it day by day. sometimes my whole body itches so horrible i have panic attacks and can't help but cry. i feel helpless at times. I'm constantly worried and hoping that none of this affects my baby. i feel a little peace when i feel her move. but, i have a few weeks left of this. i hope they go by fast.