So my life right now. I go on vacation in August and I cannot for the life of me loose this baby…

So my life right now. I go on vacation in August and I cannot for the life of me loose this baby weight or even tone my stomach and thighs. I've been trying so hard since I've given birth and could only loose 20 pounds. For a months I've been stuck at 180. I go shopping for a swim suit the 10 and I get so much anxiety from it. I always find a one piece that I LOVE but can never find the right size that doesn't squeeze me to death. It's absolutely horrible.