Started filling out my sons birthday invites and it hits me... In a month I will be singing happy birthday to my son for the very first time. Thinking about how he'll be a year old very soon brigs tears to my eyes. It feels like only yesterday I was 9months pregnant getting my deploma barely able to move. Going into preterm labor. Watching my contractions on a monitor and meeting him for the very first time. He has changed me so much and I couldn't be more thankful. My son was the best thing to ever happen to me. I can't believe how much time has past. Him and his little sibling are my everything ❤️ I'm so proud of him but so scared and sad to say he's almost one. ❤️ they grow up to fast
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

This is my son Walter. Today is his birthday. He would have been five. This picture was taken when he was 16 days old. He was my first child and my only son (I now have 3 girls). He passed away the next day after this picture from congenital heart failure. It was a miracle that he lived passed 12 weeks gestation because of how severe his heart defects were. I miss him so much, I can't believe it's been 5 years. It still hurts so bad. I don't talk about him a lot out loud because I end up bawling...
I just want his arms wrapped around me one last time and hear words come out of his mouth that arent true "I love you".. I miss him so bad. My first love! My first relationship! He was many of my first and I know today isnt even the hardest day yet.. I literally hate that I love him so much.

My sweet baby girl gained her angel wings this morning. She was my best friend, my true love my everything. She was so happy and beautiful, I'm struggling to say good bye. Sleep tight princess, mummy and daddy love you very very much ❤️

Me and my princess first time getting epidural and I’m numb from legs is this normal i can’t walk good yet