Forgive me if tend to be emotional this morning. I am ALWAYS looking back at old baby pictures of…

Forgive me if tend to be emotional this morning. I am ALWAYS looking back at old baby pictures of Nathan when he was a baby or a toddler . Those were the most joyous days of my life . Where I didn't care about being alone , not having any friends . I wasn't worried about his behavior because I was a stay at home mom until he turned 2 . The times where I didn't have to worry about him getting into fights at school or his grades or people picking on him . Those days I got to spend with him . Looking at him play & just be happy ! I think the HARDEST part about being a parent , is watching your children grow up . 😕 that perfect little bundle of joy that you gave birth to isn't really so perfect . But you love them unconditionally anyway. & I speak specifically on ALL parents but more so parents who gave birth to children who have developmental disabilities, mental illness, or even children with behavior problems! It's hard but I'm asking God for a lot of strength right now . Just hold me together while I try to put these pieces back together for my son . 😕💔