Damn I just realized I haven't eaten yet today 😬 what is wrong with mee. I never have an appetite..…

Damn I just realized I haven't eaten yet today 😬 what is wrong with mee. I never have an appetite.. and I was supposed to gain weight by my next appointment.. swear I'm just losing it.. which I mean I was 190 (went up like 40 lbs in 6 months thanks to my alcohol issues)when I found out I was pregnant at the very early beginning, after quitting instantly and eating right I was down to 182 last time -_- so gaining anything will feel like a defeat I assume.. idk I've been so weird these past few days.. I don't know what I'm doin or thinking lol