I feel so defeated.. She hasnt even been born for 48 hours and tonight in this hospital we used formula. Im an emotional wreck because I feel like I failed her.. No ones understanding why I'm crying. Its not even that I dont have milk its because the pain :'( and I know i can work through it but my "boyfriend" says get over it.. I just cant! I want her strictly on breast.. I still only want her on breast.. But he puts the bottle in her mouth anyway... And im laying here crying my eyes out and he doesnt care he doesnt get it! Im growing a serious hatred for him ever since she was born. Everything is pissing me off I cant handle this :'(