lately my mind has been on my angel baby. why him, asking God to give him back, wondering if I did something wrong or if…

lately my mind has been on my angel baby. why him, asking God to give him back, wondering if I did something wrong or if I could have prevented it. the worst part is that since my babies dad and I aren't together anymore I can't even really talk to anyone about it. I feel really alone. he pretty much just cut me off like I did something wrong. its okay though.