So Saturday was supposed to be a great day, we went to knotts with my cousin and her husband, my…

So Saturday was supposed to be a great day, we went to knotts with my cousin and her husband, my sister-in-law in law took care of my baby and he was completely happy since he loves his aunt, which made me feel more comfortable about leaving, since I was so scared he'd probably trow a tantrum for not seen me, I could tell I was missing him more than what he was missing me... but it was all going pretty good, even tho I almost died in one of the rides.

But on our way home I got a terrible news which made my whole day go down..

A really close friend of mine had gotten in to a motorcycle accident on the 11th and died Saturday💔💔 I was in denial for like 2 hours I just couldn't believe it. it couldn't be. but then his sister confirmed it...

I've gone through this 4 years ago, my friend was killed in his own house, his own bed. that might have been the worst month of my life, and to have to go through all this again, I don't know If I would be able too..

only difference is that 4 years ago I didn't have my baby and my husband with me, so it was just me. So now every time I see my son he just lights up that darkness in me, makes me wanna get up a continue on with my life, because by the end of the day that's all there is left to do. the past 2 days have been really though, especially Knowing I won't be able to say goodbye since I live in California and he is in New Mexico. But I want to think that's for the best. I want to remember him for the person he was, funny, outgoing, HAPPY, so talented.. not seen him in a coffin,😔😔

I love you bro, I now have another beautiful angel that will forever take good care of me and my baby♡