I seriously need all of your opinions.

My doctor is leaving it up to me to decide whether to have a C-Section or to Try and have babygirl naturally when it comes to that time.

NOW, here's my story short and sweet:

When I had my daughter, it was alot of trouble and a VERY scary day for me.
I tried to go naturally but it didn't work out that way.
My daughters umbilical cord was stunted and was too short for her to move down like she should have, resulting in it restricting at her heart and she flat lined... I had to be rushed into an emergency c-section...
They got her out in time and was able to save her... BUT they almost couldn't save me. I remember everything fading out and my body going numb (the remainder that wasn't affected by the anesthesia).
They lost me and couldn't bring me back for almost 4 hours.

It was honestly the scariest day of my life... to know that I died and almost didn't come back. I have to decide on what I want to do, knowing that if I try to have her naturally I'm at higher risk of blood loss and other complications, possibly even death, but then knowing that I actually died with my C-Section... it scares me to death to have another one.

I am honestly stumped on what to do because I want to make sure that I have a safe delivery for both my child and myself. It makes me so emotional and want to cry. I tried to talk to my fiance about it and he said its up to me... he wants me to try natural but there's risks scare me..

I know I should not be scared of childbirth because it's a beautiful thing but because of having such a horrible experience with my first child... I'm lost.

I really need help deciding.

What are you ladies opinions?

I just want both of us to be safe and I want to still be in this world for my children...