So I know i still have a while but I'm so torn about this topic so my no. has literally never raised…

So I know i still have a while but I'm so torn about this topic so my no. has literally never raised me just been there when she wants because she always chose drugs over my siblings. and everybody's mad at me cause I don't really want her being in my sons life or coming to the hospital to see him. I just don't want him experiencing getting just from her when I can prevent it ..