I'm downstairs in the bathroom secluding myself because I'm uncomfortable, upset, want to cry, and I…

I'm downstairs in the bathroom secluding myself because I'm uncomfortable, upset, want to cry, and I have no one to talk to because the only person I talk to his my honey, and I can't talk to him is because it's about his family. This was a mistake I should've stayed home. I don't know why I thought this was a good idea, I don't even like being around my own family for a long period of time, I don't know why I thought I could with his and his family members always make me feel unwelcome and secluded or they are overbearing and telling me what I need to be doing. My honey buffers for me but it's too much. Him and his mom just left me and went to go run errands and left me with his grandmother and they didn't even bother to ask if I wanted to go 😩😖