just 5 weeks and 2 days till my due date. she's gonna be here soon and I'm so nervous. I want to go completely natural.…

just 5 weeks and 2 days till my due date. she's gonna be here soon and I'm so nervous. I want to go completely natural. no pitocin no epidural. I would actually prefer not to be laying down when I have her but rather in a natural squatting position. I'm just scared that I'm gonna cave and get the epidural or that because I'm high risk from diabetes they'll want to induce me or something and pitocin makes labor worse cause it's not your body naturally supplying the oxytocin but someone forcing your body to do things with medicine just to save them some time. ugh I feel like something isn't gonna go the way I want it to