On the bright side I woke up to a bunch of really nice (not being sarcastic; they were truly nice…

On the bright side I woke up to a bunch of really nice (not being sarcastic; they were truly nice for a change) texts from my child's father who's actually been a complete angel this entire week. I'm probably about to sound really cheesy and naïve and probably stupid to those who have given me advice here (which I've been beyond grateful for and keep with me and use it when I need it); but he has actually been trying really hard lately and acting right and being really sweet. Although it's definitely hard to not keep the way he was acting in my mind and keep reminding myself of it, I know that I can't hold grudges and act mean and evil towards someone because that's not healthy for a plethora of reasons. We aren't rushing things right now, but it is nice to have him around and actually being supportive and listening and trying to understand and doing what he has to do and then some and making me feel beyond amazing and constantly making me feel like some beautiful, magical, amazing human being (which is a nice change from constantly feeling like some monstrous whale) . I'm trying not to get overly happy and let the "butterflies" that he gives me kind of control how I'm seeing things or put me in a place to get hurt or disappointed, but it is nice to have my little family kind of in a nice place at the moment.