I'm really sad at how unhealthy I am, that my legs are starting to have poor circulation and go…

I'm really sad at how unhealthy I am, that my legs are starting to have poor circulation and go numb:( but I can't find myself to have any motivation to just go walk around my neighborhood, it's so frickin boring to me, I just start walking then want to turn around because I feel like I look stupid walking around a dead ass neighborhood....