So right after my son was born, I only held him for a few minutes because I ended up tearing deeply…

So right after my son was born, I only held him for a few minutes because I ended up tearing deeply inside on the right side wall of my vagina. Which caused me to lose a lot of blood. And it was all bruising from bleeding inside. I almost had to have an operation. and ended up basically passing out. They quickly took him from me and I was getting all hooked up. Basically all I remember is waking up at 1215 I think to My BF burping him and them checking me. Also I was getting a blood transfusion. So they're monitoring the bruising inside me and also on the outside of me. But right now I am fine and able to eat cause they don't think I'm going to need an operation. Just a little emotional considering I slept from the time he was born to 12. So I missed his first bottle and all that. Just got me a little sad. Can't wait to see his little face again. ☺️