First off, motherhood is overwhelming. Second, it's totally okay to cry. I would recommend Google or Facebook searching for mom groups in your area that way you can make new friends who are going through the same thing as you, and I would also recommend talking to your doctor about things. It's always nice to talk to someone in a peaceful environment. You're not alone momma. Tons of women feel the way you do, just make sure you find someone you can walk to about it.