only emotions ive ever really known is anger and happiness. i swear all it took was for a family…

only emotions ive ever really known is anger and happiness. i swear all it took was for a family member to say i finally look healthy and say she was proud and i wanted to cry. wtf is that?? im 8 months in i thought if the whole emotion thing was gonna hit like that it would have a while ago and not all a sudden now. im glad i can push away tears and keep from lettin everything show but damn this is something i really rather not deal with in the first place...me and emotions is usually never a good mix