So my insurance offers this "healthy pregnancy " program where they assign you a RN to check in with…

So my insurance offers this "healthy pregnancy " program where they assign you a RN to check in with they're 24-7 so you can call them anytime with any questions, well today was my first day talking to them figured I'll register just in case. They were asking me different questions and they asked me " Are you Happy?" And that triggered a wave a emotions that I've been dealing with all day. I'm m in a very difficult situation me and my child's father split about a month ago and it's been very difficult but I made a conscious decision that I will not be sad that I'm doing the best for my child . So honestly it's an everyday effort of not being sad and for the most part I'm dealing with it very well but then when she ask am I happy the truth is I'm not and I wish I was I wish I can experience this joys of being pregnant and becoming a mother but I can't... And that's makes me sad overall that I can't be happy for my child and I feel my child deserves a parent that is happy for them