I was really excited about finishing what I started almost over a year ago but not being able to…

I was really excited about finishing what I started almost over a year ago but not being able to fine a place to and not having the help I need really sucks and make me not want to try anymore or even be excited. The only that has faint in me is my husband and he is always at work to take care of us so it sucks I feel this way then he is gone and when he comes home I don't tell him because he doesn't need to be bother with it.