Feeling some kind of way last night.
Feeling some kind of way last night.
I will be 33 in July and disappointed I couldn't get my shit together sooner.
To be honest I didn't think I'd ever have a child. I thought I was too old and worn out by now, from crazy dieting and drugs I was on before.
And now, here I am, almost 33 years old, pregnant by a 21 yr old guy I used drugs with, not married, in lots of debt, having to move home with parents and get government assistance. 😔 This definitely was not where I wanted to be at this point. I just really feel like a failure and wish I could do better for my baby girl, but I don't have much to show for her right now, other than having a healthy baby and staying clean off the drugs for 6 months now.
I definitely believe everything happens for a reason. As painful as it is to go it alone without the man who helped create her, I think it's a sign from the universe. I know if it weren't for getting pregnant, I'd still be on drugs, possibly in jail or worse by now. I had tried to get sober by going to rehab once and it didn't work and I relapsed.
It's amazing how this little girl showed me the door to sobriety. All I care about is protecting her and keeping her safe and healthy. Not even worth it to get high anymore.
Melissa·
Мама четверых детей
We all make mistakes and aren't perfect. I'm 31 in debt. My fiance doesn't work. Not married. I lost 3 true friends because I am not married and pregnant.
Steph·
Многодетная мама (5 детей)
Don't feel bad, I'm fricken 39 and in ur position. I just had my 5th baby. I have 3 baby daddies , lost custody of my other 4 due to drugs and I live with my parents for my safety and because I can't afford to be on my own. I used to be a very successful mom, married, owned my own business, married 15 years and made 20,000 a month. I lost everything. I, too, got pregnanant by my 43 year old drug dealer. We are not together. I'm doing it all alone as well. I just take things one day at a time. I got pregnant on the depo shot. I didn't want any more kids. Honestly I told my mom I wanted to die with a needle in my arm. My life was over. I overdose and went to many psych wards and rehabs. Nothing worked until I ended up prego. Life is crazy. Good luck in ur sobriety. If u do t do it for urself, do it for ur innocent baby. I cry every day mourning the loss of my 4 kids.