I saw your longer post but don't know where it went.. Just wanted to leave my comment so you know.. And now.. It's time to do what's best for you. You have been a rock, a shoulder, a mother to your siblings and nieces, a wonderful support for your mother and for them to not let you feel like this is your time is complete shit. I know it's hard because it's family but I think it's best you distance yourself from them a bit. Absence makes the heart grow fonder and maybe this time will make the wheels turn in there heads a bit more to see this is not about them and it's your turn for some support and love. You deserve it!!!! Please don't turn to alcohol.. You can do this!! Vent as much as you need.. This app really is wonderful for that because everyone is going through such an emotional time. FROM A FTM TO ANOTHER FTM.. You can do this and -i- am here to root you on 💯💯💯💯