I'm tired of my boyfriend bull shit he complains he tired when he has a new job and he gets home at…

I'm tired of my boyfriend bull shit he complains he tired when he has a new job and he gets home at 2 or 3 and he can't even help with the baby I don't understand I'm stressing later I've been having panic attacks because of the stress and I hate it I'm stressed bout his dumb ass I've been afraid of writing stuff on here about my feelings because last time he went through my phone and saw what I wrote on this app and sometimes i need talk to people who get it and understand I'm tired of just staying home In a room I want do things but he brought me to live with him because my house is boring he said once I live with him it be fun I'll show you around and do fun things oh yeah since been here nothing but parks even when the baby wasn't here it's same shit.... I just needs friends I don't have any 😭😭😭😭😭