Nothing is like registering through my brain... like my ex died, and I just gave birth and my baby…

Nothing is like registering through my brain... like my ex died, and I just gave birth and my baby dad is mentally breaking down refusing a dna test... And like it hasn't hit me. everyday I wake up thinking he's okay. I look at my daughter and think, god labor is going to suck. And I think my baby dad is fine and I can just message him.

Has anyone else felt like this? Clearly I know, but it hasn't hit hit me yet.