After I have this baby I swear I'm getting myself together. I know my kids father doesn't find me…

After I have this baby I swear I'm getting myself together. I know my kids father doesn't find me attractive he just wanted me to pay his bills, and put food in the house. But I need to do it for myself it's been a long time, no make up I don't shop for myself and I could use a haircut or something 😩