i know its amazing news that my doc wants to wait until im 37 weeks to have my c-section since baby…

i know its amazing news that my doc wants to wait until im 37 weeks to have my c-section since baby girl is doing SOOO much better. and i feel 100% selfish for thinking that now im going to be in the hospital for another 18 days on top of the 20 ive been here. id much rather it be me laying here than her in the NUIC but i want to go home!!