B4 and after I'm changing but it's taking a lot of hard work and motivation....I'm 201 and that's…

B4 and after I'm changing but it's taking a lot of hard work and motivation....I'm 201 and that's the same weight I was when I went into labor...two months ago I was 218 so I can't feel to bad being my same weight as labor...it's hard bc I miss my old self and how confident I was but I was also sad bc I wanted a family...I rather be fat bc of having an amazing son then being skinny and wondering if I will ever have a child or can i....